Satu jam saja :(

Jangan berakhir aku tak ingin berakhirSatu jam saja kuingin diam berdua
Mengenang yang pernah ada
Jangan berakhir karena esok takkan lagiSatu jam saja hingga kurasa bahagia
Mengakhiri segalanya
Tapi kini tak mungkin lagiKatamu semua sudah tak berarti
Satu jam saja
Itupun tak mungkin, tak mungkin lagi
Jangan berakhir kuingin sebentar lagiSatu jam saja ijinkan aku merasa
Rasa itu pernah ada

THAT SHOULD BE ME !

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!


That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my
heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,

Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3

BREAK

Gue putus !!! Sekali lagi GUE PUTUS !!!!
hahahaha sakit banget rasanyaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lo tau nggaaa ??!!!!!! GUE SAYANG BANGET SAMA ELO REFKYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GUE GATAU INI ALESAN LO AJA APA EMANG BENER-BENER CEMBURU !!!
HAH ! ALESAN YANG NGGA MASUK AKAL TAU NGGA SIH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE JGNNGMNG INI SEMUA CUMA ALESAN LO DOANGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAU BERAPA KALI GUE BILANG KALO GUE SAYANG BANGET SAMA LO :'(((((((((((
MAU BERAPA RATUS KALIIIIIIIIIIIIII ??????????????\]
SALAH GUE APA COBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
GUE UDH NGELAKUIN SEMAKSIMAL GUE !!!\
GUE NYOBA GANGELUARIN KEEGOISAN GUE !!!!!!!\
GUE GAPERNAH NUNJUKIN KEMARAHAN GUE KAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GUE SELALU NGALAH KAN !

TAPI APA BALESAN LO SKRNG REFKY!!!!
GUE TAU PASTI GARA2 CEWE ITUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AKU CAPE ! TAPI AKU TAHAN :(
GAMAU BERAKHIR REFKY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
SEBENTAR LAGI REFKY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE :(
GUE GATAU MAU NGMNG APALAGI !!!
UDH KELEWAT SAKIT REFKY NGERTI NGGA SIH PERASAAN AKU :(

5 Jam

5Jam semalem,gue nangisin lo !
Lo ngerasa bersalah ngga? engga kan ! :(
Lo sedih ngga liat gue nangis? engga kan ! :(
Lo tau? apa yg buat gue nangis ? iya LO !!
Lo yg buat gue nangis :(
Lo yg buat mata gue sembab :(
Lo yg buat gue nyesek se nyesek nyeseknya :(
Gue gatau pasti apa yg buat gue nangis :( tapi yang pasti LO BERUBAH BANGET !!!!
Yapp mungkin gue nangis gara2 gue merasa terabaikan sama lo ! :(
Gue di rumah sakit,sendirian,ga ad yg jagain :(
Dan berharap lo yg jagain gue :(
Lo yg nemenin gue tidur ! walaupun cuma lewat telpon :(
Dan semua itu cuma rencana gue :(
gue yg pengen, tapi nyatanya? Lo gamau,harusnya gue tau dari sebelum gue rencanain Lo pasti ga mau :(
salah gue emang??? emang salah gue?? yg ngarep kaya gitu??
berlebihan?? berlebihan emang harepan gue itu ?? Engga kan :(
pertamanya sih yaudah kalo lo ga mau telponan sama gue,gapapa kok kan bisa bbm'an
tapi nyatanya ???? Chat gue cuma dibales SEADANYA tanpa ada pertanyaan sudah makan? Lagi ngapain? Ga ada sama sekali !! :(
Terus gue ngomong gini "kok kita semakin hari semakin ngejauh ya" 
Gue berharap lo bakal minta maaf dan ga mau ngulangin lagi semua itu !! Tapi nyatanya ? Sekali lagi itu hanya harapan gue doang :(
Dan kenyataanyaa ????? Lo cuma read bbm gue doang ! Tanpa punya maksud buat ngebales !
Terus gue PING !!! satu kali,undeliv,
Gue PING !!! lagi dua kali,undeliv,
Gue nyoba nelpon dy no.ny ga aktif.
Terus gue nyuruh defito(ade-ade'an gue) ngePING !!! dy dan ternyata dibales dan baru deliv !
Mungkin td hp nya mati,mungkin td dy lagi reboot kali ya,
dan defito nyuruh gue nelvn dy,semula sih gue ragu buat nelvn dy,tapi gara2 dorongan defito yaudah gue nyoba nelvn dia,dan ternyata "nomor yang anda tuju sedang sibuk" waw .
Siapa yg telvnan sama dia semalem ini ? telvnan sama siapa ?? Sesibuk itukah ? Seseru itu kah dia telvnan sama orang itu sampe sampe bbm gue cuma diread !!
Tibatiba gue nangis lagi :(
Gue tau gue nangis gara2 apa !
gue nangis gara2 no.ny sibuk dan bbm gue cuma dia baca !
udh ngga lama gue nyoba nelvn dy lagi.
Dan ternyata nomor dy udh ga sibuk lagi*alhamdulillah
Dan dy ngangkat telvn gue tanpa basa basi apa apa lagi dy cuma bilang "aku ngantuk yang,aku mau tidur. kamu jgn tidur malem-malem,gapapa kan telvn nya dimatiin? yaudah aku matiin ya" tut tut tut..
Tanpa ucapan gudnite,tanpa ucapan aku sayang kamu dy matiin telvnnya !!
dan lagi lagi gue nangis senangis nangisnyaaa !!!
WAW !!!! Gue nangis !!! Gue nangis gara2 gue kesel !!
Kenapa lo ngga ngucapin gudnite,aku sayang kamu lagi sama aku :(
Gue nangis !!! Gue nangis !!! kenapa lo mau matiin telvn nya waktu lo tidur ???
bukannya biasanya lo gamau matiin telvn gara2 lo takut gue telvnan sama orang lain ??
Tapi kenapa lo ga ngelakuin kebiasaan lo ituuuu !!!!
Kenapaaaaa :( nyesek!!
Nyesek se nyeseknyesek nya !!
Nangiisss :( nangis se nangis nangisnya :(
Gue nangis gara2 gue ga nyangka, mood booster gue sekarang berubah jadi mood breaker !!
Gue sayang sama lo sampe sampe gue ga berhubungan sama cowo lain selain LO !
Gue sayang sama lo sampe sampe gue ga telvnan sama orang lain selain LO !
Gue sayang sama lo sampe sampe gue nolak semua orang yg sayang sama gue gara2 LO !
Gue sayang banget sama elo !!!
Please ngertiin gue :(


Wid Love,
Astrid Np

my mine :*

oke hari ini gue bakal ngepost tentangggggggg cowo baru gueeee
huh gue udh ga tahan lagi daahh *lebay*
oke kita mulai dari awal,namanya muhammad refky dwi cahya dy mantan pacarnya fintha yg sahabat gue,
ga enak sih dengernya Ngambil bekas mantan temen tapidia duluan yang ngambil mantan gue dan rasanya itu sakit bangett lebih sakit dari yg gue buat ini !
Udah lupain soal temen balik lagi ke cowo gue. Iya si refky ini udh gue kenal lumayan lama. dia ini orangnya rame,kocak,lucu,baik,perhatian,dan banyak lagi deh.. oh iya dia juga paling ngga seneng sama cewe yg foto pake baju seksi *bukan mata keranjang dong* <3
dan dia juga anti anak alay *akut* pas bgt lah sama gue yg anti anak alay jg hehe.
Tp dia juga manusia,dy jg punya kekurangan. diantaranya dy itu paling seneng ngatain orang,paling usil,paling cerewet ampe hal kecilkecil dia coment. tapi kekuangan dia itu seakan ga berarti bagi gue, dan gue gatau kenapa bisa sayang sama orang kaya dia, tapi gue bersyukur udh dikasih orng kaya dia sama tuhan, satu lagi, dia itu cemburuan bangeett, tp cemburu kan tanda sayang yak hahaha.
Tapi.. gue kurang nyaman sama hubungan gue ini :( dia yg anti alay buat kita ngga mengumbar didunia maya.
Cukup kita2 aja yang tau. karena kalo diumbar2 alay katanyaa. Tapi anggapan dy ini buat gue (maaf) kaya ngga dianggap sama dia.
Mungkin ini cuma perasaan gue aja kali yah,tapi perasaanini yg buat gue semakin bertanya-tanya.
Di bio tweet gue,di blog gue,di status bbm gue,tak terkecuali hati gue ada nama dia.Tapi gue gatau apakah ada nama gue di hati dia. gue gataaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuu gue gatau ituuuuuu :(
satu kata ya buat lo,gue sayang pake banget sama lo ! longlast ya sayaaaaangggggg :******

with love,
  a.n.p